Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Breathe, just breathe...

Whoever coined the phrase 'terrible 2's' has obviously never met my 3 yr old daughter! Let's just say that today has been a challenge. And although I had an activity planned to do with her this afternoon, I actually breathed a sigh of relief when she decided to put herself to bed for a nap. Now she may be up until 11pm tonight (again- the same thing happened on Monday), but I honestly don't know how we would have made it safely through the afternoon if she hadn't made that decision! Her mood was infectious too. Gabe went and pouted in the corner at Kinder Gym because he didn't get his way. Pity he looked so cute with his pouting & I couldn't help but almost laugh at him. Even bigger pity I didn't have the camera at that exact moment!

It has been a weird old week and a bit around here. Lots of food for thought.

We actually made a 'family day' last Sunday. Is it awful to admit that we haven't done anything just the 4 (now 5) of us since Abbey's birthday when we went to the zoo? We took the kids to the Enchanted Maze garden at Arhtur's Seat. They had a section just for kids, & Abbey of course was fascinated by the fairies in the garden. As we were getting ready to leave, I had to take her back to the fairies and she had to have her photo taken with each one individually. Despite the cold & slight drizzle, we all had a great time. And although the $39 for us all to get in was a bit much, Abbey definitely got her $9 worth. And all the way home & all that evening she kept saying "I had the best day". She made us happy just becasue she was happy! Now let's hope that it doesn't take us another 6 mths to get the chance for a family outing.

Bruce's funeral was hard, but then I knew it would be. Anne, Evan, James & Ainsley (via her sister- as she was still in the UK) all managed to be brave enough to share some of their stories and love of Bruce. And I managed to laugh through my tears. RIP Bruce, unfortunately there isn't enough brave, beautiful souls in the world & you will be missed by many. Despite his struggle to survive, he managed to maintain an infectious enthusiasm for living. The simple things in life were what were important to Bruce. Family, friendship, music, good food to name a few. I will never forget his amazement that I had never seen Star Wars. And so he took me along with Anne & Evan when it was re-released for the big screen, telling me I would be sure to like it if I just gave it a chance. Well sorry Bruce, it really wasn't my thing. He also similarly tried to expose me to car racing at Sandown. I think that was early in my 1st year of Uni & so I hadn't known Anne or the Hollonds for long. Rhonda sensibly went shopping that day! So Star Wars or cars weren't my thing, but his enthusiasm for both & his willingness to share were inspiring, as was his love for his family! I will remember many meals shared, many conversation about life, the universe & a million other topics & a man who touched many lives and made a difference. And that is special!

It's also poignant that a new grief can freshen up old grief. Dad has been gone for almost 8 yrs, but it still makes me sad that I can't share so many things with him. Especially my children! Now I'm sure Dad will be sharing a few good conversations with Bruce up in heaven & Bruce will fill him in on earthly happenings. I have to believe that is the way things work!

And to finish (or sinnish as Gabe would say)...Gabe's new saying is

"doesn't matter". Now how Gabe is that? Mr casual & all!

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